it's not rocket science!!

It really isn't.

In order start writing on this blog again I have to tell myself, "It's Not Rocket Science". I don't know about you, anonymous reader (annon, because I haven't told anyone that I have started writing), but it is easy to convince myself that what I write is unimportant, unnecessary, unpolished, and just generally not ready for an audience of any kind. You see. I have this secret desire to use my cool last name to grace the front cover of a hardback book some day. Which means, I would have to have something important to say, or at the least some catchy idea that would convince a publisher I could put food on their table. (As far as I know, a cool name alone doesn't push merchandise. Right BonJovi? Oh, WAIT!!!) In order to come up with decent ideas, I need to be searching for what I find interesting; and for me that requires writing. So when I feel like I just can't do it, I need to remind myself that this is not rocket science.

Some things in life, for me at least, do seem to be rocket science. Finding a job tops my list this week. I am working on a Master's Degree in Community Development and I want to work for an organization that cares for the Urban poor. I thought I had a job lined up recently, but when the organization discovered that it was not going to receive a grant for community development work, my job position crumbled. So now it is back to square one. I am asking the same questions most 20-somethings ask like "how do I make a living doing something that really matters?", and "what am I really passionate about?", and "Am I really an expert in anything that would pay my bills?". Sadly, my 20s are dying but these questions are not. Is it time for me to grow up and take on some responsibility? Maturity to me is rocket science.

But I shouldn't say that too loud our I might start convincing myself that everything is too difficult. So for now, I'll keep telling myself that none of this is THAT hard; I do have options. I do have ideas. I do have words to write. And I hope it sparks some interest.